MEMORY CHALLENGE:
ALONE
isolated / separated from others / exclusive of anyone and anything else / incomparable / unique
Recall a time when you felt the most alone, and invite Jesus to reflect with you. What do you remember? How did you feel then, as compared to how you feel now, re-visiting that time?
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Posted by SherryN on November 7, 2017 at 8:08 pm
As I’ve pondered the word “alone” today, I realize how easy it is to confuse “feeling alone” with “feeling lonely”. Lonely is defined by words like lonesome, friendless, forsaken, abandoned, unloved, unwanted, etc. Often the word lonely is accompanied by feelings of sadness. Really different words, the two of them.
I believe a person can be totally surrounded by people and feel both alone or lonely. Not alone and lonely, but definitely either one independent of the other.
The time I recall feeling the most ALONE…
I was in a room filled to the brim with people worshipping in a church. I experienced what I call a Kaleidescope Moment, one in which God reveals an amazing truth to me. This particular night, after weeks of preparing to see my oldest son, who was eighteen at the time, leave home for the mission field across the ocean from our home, I was standing in the back of a church concert venue. My son was on stage with his guitar and his open heart, sharing about an uncertain future serving The Absolute and Certain Savior. I had been struggling with the idea of letting him go. My first born. It seemed to be an always on battle between what I knew I felt, and how I felt I should feel. My flesh was giving me a fit. But as he sang a hymn, and the words rang out,
“All my life long I had panted
For a drink from some cool spring,
That I hoped would quench the burning
Of the thirst I felt within…”
everything around me changed. It was as through a veil between The Lord Himself and I was made so thin in this place filled with praises over His name that everything and everybody else, including the sounds, faded away and I was alone in that moment of revelation. Standing in God’s love, and His truth. The most tender words caressed my heart as I understood for the first time the depth of love The Father has for my son – Has for His own! – has for Me.
The battle was over.
My flesh had lost.
And it was completely a victory – a celebration even! – as I stood alone, in a room full of unaware people. My son did not belong to me, he never had. He was moving forward and being obedient to The One he does belong to.
I felt the most alone in that moment. And in the moments after, the most loved and the most grateful. In scripture, we are told to “Be Still, and Know That I Am God.” I think that’s exactly the alone we need to be receptive to Our Father. Alone, without others, without things, but always present with Him. It’s the best Alone I’ve ever known!
John 8:29 reads: “The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him.”
Jesus spoke these words about The Heavenly Father. How many times do we read of Jesus going off to “be alone” in prayer, in communication with The Father?
Oh, that just thrills me, to know that Jesus experienced mighty times of being alone.